young mom

I just watched this movie about a teen mom (yes it was on life time). It made me think a lot about my life. I was in the same place. I never thought it would happen to me. I was told over and over that I had "options". Really I didn't. I choose to have sex so I choose to be a parent. End of story. Was it easy? Hell no. I got a lot of shit from a lot of people. My mom wanted me to go the "mommy" school. Up until I was 4 1/2 months pregnant she tried to tell me about my "options". I stayed at my school. I worked my ass off. I went to day school and night school so that I could graduate my junior year. I went to school every day and listened to all the rumors that were being said about me. I quickly found out who my real friends were. And lets just say there weren't too many, no one wants to be friends with the pregnant girl. It amazes be everyone is having sex but only the pregnant one is a slut. It made things hard but I did it not only for me but for my son. I did to show other girls that you don't have to give up. That having a child isn't the end of your life it is the begins When I had my son it was so amazing. There is no way I could have ever let some one else raise him. When I was 15 (the year before I got pregnant) and looked 5 years ahead I saw myself doing what most 20 years do, going to college, dating and working. But now that I am 20 I couldn't picture my life any other way. When I tell people that I'm 20 and have 2 kids they look at me like I'm lying or crazy. Then the questions start coming at me. Some people would say that I made a mistake or screwed up my life. To those people I say shut the hell up. Until you have lived 1,000 days in my life you have no place to say a thing. My son has forever changed me and the way I look at things. If I could go back to 16 I would not change a thing. I would do it all over again if I had. I didn't screw up my life I made it better