I wonder

As I sit here and look back on my life I wonder why the hell GOD let some of the things happen to me that did. I mean somethings cause so much pain and hurt that they will forever be with you. They change the way you look at things. The way you act towards others. It seems like no matter how much you say that you are over something or that it doesnt bother you any more it still comes back to huant you. At the same time I'm greatful for those things because they have made me who I am today. Without the pain and hurt I dont know who I'd be or where I'd be today. It is crazy, everything happens for a reason. I like to believe that GOD only gives you things that he knows you can handle. You may think you cant be he knows you can. I look back in my life and think of all the times I thought "I cant do this, there is no way in hell I'm going to make it through this" and every time I have made it. That helps me remember that I have been through hard times before and I can do it again.