anothers choice

so yesterday i was so ready to be pissed and kill some people. After running (until I couldnt), talking, reading, praying (yes I do that for you that think I dont), and thinking. I have decided that I'm not going to kill anyone. I'm not even going to write an angry blog. I am however going to say this: It amazes me how some one else poor choices can forever effect you and the people around you. It is amazing how you didnt choose what happened or is happening but you still feel guilt like you did something wrong. You still wonder if there was something you could have done to change things. If you did something to bring this too you. In all reality you didnt. It just happened. Its not your fault or the people around you. It is that one person. That one selfish person that could only think about themselves. There is no reason to be angry. What is done is done. You cant change that. There is no reason to be scared. GOD never gives you more then you can handle. If you stay strong with him things will be ok. I do understand they feelings that come with it. You feel guilty, ashamed, dirty, unwanted, alone. You feel as if you are standing there, the world is whizzing by you, you are screaming yet no one stops and even looks at you. You feel like no one understands. You dont have to feel that way. One day everything will be ok. You are stronger that what is before you. You will prevail. Believe that. Also believe that karma is a bitch.