A glimps of my craziness

There is so much in my head at this very moment. What? I dont really know. There are things that need to be said. Things that need to be done. People that need to hear what I'm saying. People I need to see. Questions. Answers. Problems. Solutions. They are all there. In that head of mine. Sadness. Happiness. Scared. Hopeful. Love. Unsure but more sure then ever. My brain is having a battle. Its worried but certain. Its calm but anxious. Hurt and healed. Broken but fixed. It seems to be some of everything. Some people cause some things while others seem to fix them.

who?

There always seems to be that one person you can tell everything to. That one person you can run to. That person that will always be there no matter what. They help you through everything. They bring out the best in you. You cant help but to smile when you think of them. Your every thought is about them in some shape or form. Everything reminds you of them. Some how they make everything ok. They are there to work through things with you. When everyone is walking away from you they are standing next to you. They listen. They talk. They comfort. They help. They tell you to stuck it up and deal with it. :) When you are down they sit down with you until you are ready to have them help you up. To the people like that I say THANK YOU!

a minute in time

STOP. Just for a minute. Think of nothing. Do nothing. Just be. Just for a minute. GO. What is there? What is around you? What are you doing? What are you thinking? Think about why those things have came to you.

anothers choice

so yesterday i was so ready to be pissed and kill some people. After running (until I couldnt), talking, reading, praying (yes I do that for you that think I dont), and thinking. I have decided that I'm not going to kill anyone. I'm not even going to write an angry blog. I am however going to say this: It amazes me how some one else poor choices can forever effect you and the people around you. It is amazing how you didnt choose what happened or is happening but you still feel guilt like you did something wrong. You still wonder if there was something you could have done to change things. If you did something to bring this too you. In all reality you didnt. It just happened. Its not your fault or the people around you. It is that one person. That one selfish person that could only think about themselves. There is no reason to be angry. What is done is done. You cant change that. There is no reason to be scared. GOD never gives you more then you can handle. If you stay strong with him things will be ok. I do understand they feelings that come with it. You feel guilty, ashamed, dirty, unwanted, alone. You feel as if you are standing there, the world is whizzing by you, you are screaming yet no one stops and even looks at you. You feel like no one understands. You dont have to feel that way. One day everything will be ok. You are stronger that what is before you. You will prevail. Believe that. Also believe that karma is a bitch.