if i could say.......

Here is the game. Write anything about 10 different people. No names. Just write what you you would tell them if you could tell them anything. ANYTHING. 1. I love you. You are one of the strongest people I know. You may be a little shit sometimes but you are awesome. You do what most people cant, by choice. I pray that you are always safe and make the best choices possible. You better believe I can still kick your ass :) 2. my dear lady, I cant help but to love you. You are so full of life. I love it when we finger, and elbow dance, well just any dance. I would talk to you all day if it werent for those stupid minutes! You are my best friend. I'm grateful to know that you will always be here for me, and me the same. 3. You are so freaking amazing. Never in my wildest dreams did I think it would turn out like this. I feel so safe when I am with you. Like nothing could go wrong and if it did it would be ok because we can talk about. You bring out the best in me. I laugh and smile so much with you, it hurts. You bring so much joy to my life. I cant hold it in. I want to thank you for listen to me and being there no matter what. When I was alone, when I was almost done putting the pieces back together by myself, when it was just me and my babies.....you came along. 4. We have had so many things go on in our time together. I will never regret it and never forget what happened. But I will never be bitter about it either. If I could say one thing to you, it would be.....Its not their fault, what ever it is, it isnt their fault. They deserve so much. They deserve to know you, you deserve to know them. If you only took the time. They are amazing. I feel sad for all you are choosing to miss out on. One day you will realize this. I just hope its not to late. I would also say, there comes a day when you need to grow up. You need to step up and see what you have done and who you have become. 5. I think you are such a sweet, awesome person. I think you deserve so much more then what he is giving you. I also know how hard it is to leave and start over with nothing. It is scary. Uneasy. It takes time to get to that point and go through with it. But sweetie is is worth it in the end. You are so amazing. So strong. I want you to know I will always be here for you, no matter what. Thank you for always being there for me. 6. I wish that you would keep your negativity to yourself. Why do you have to be so rude to the people around you? Just let us be happy. There is no reason to pop our bubbles. Do you realize that people dont want to talk to you because you always have something negative to say? Enough is enough. Come on now. 7. I can wait to be closer to you. I hope that the drive to your house becomes way to familiar for us. Thank you for always being there and helping me out. When we were younger I wouldnt consider us that close. But now I would have to say we are closer than ever. I wouldnt have it any other way. I hope that everything is working out for you guys. Some choices are tough but they must be made 8. I'm sad the way things turned out just because I love you guys so much. I like to think that what has happened wont change things with us. But I know that blood is thicker then water. I also know that you are not like that. Only time will tell. I'm grateful that you were there for me and always listened to me even when it was hard to hear. I will always consider you guys family. 9. I honestly dont have anything to say to you. But I guess if I had to, I would say go to hell. I hope you rot and burn. I want you to feel the pain you caused everyone around you. Karma is a bitch. It will bite you in your ass one day and I will laugh. But you will never hear these word from me because I will never talk to you again. I will never be in the same room as you. EVER 10. You two are so perfect. You are the best things ever. You make me smile always. I talk about you more then humanly possible. I would do anything for you two. I pray that you will understand and respect my choices when you are older. Sometimes things are tough but you guys are strong. You are the bravest beings I know. Just remember I will always love you, and be here for you. You are the greatest gift to life. I really dont have bad things to say to people. The people that deserve bad words are not in my life. There is no reason to be bitter and angry all the time. Why waste you time and energy on them? Life is too short. I like to surround myself with people I love and want to be around.

The greatest feeling in the world

After having made you choices, you sometimes realize that they werent the right one. Sure you wouldnt be were you are today without those choices. I guess that means they were right at some point in time just not anymore. You think you are in love or you are being loved. Then you realize that, that isnt the case anymore. So what do you do? You take time and heal. Then you try at love again. Your first few tries may not go like you thought. They dont ever move from friendship to more. So you keep trying. Then one day, when you have almost accepted the fact that it just might not happen, it happens. You dont really know what to do. You are totally and absolutely into it this time. It moves from friends to where you want it. It is amazing. You can believe it. Everything seems to be going so perfect. Its almost too perfect. Still in the back of your mind you are scared. You worry about being hurt and let down. You wonder if it will really last. You know the answers. But you still cant help but to have those things in the back of your mind. All you can do is trust that everything will be ok. In time those feelings will go away and you will realize that you will never be hurt or taken advantage of again. You will realize that there is nothing to be afraid of. Nothing to worry about. It just takes time. Believe me it is totally worth it. So let go and enjoy life. Enjoy the happiness that it can bring you. Dont be afraid. You will find what you have always wanted and needed in someone. It is the greatest feeling in the world. ~Once in awhile, Right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale.~

Cards

As I sit and read through what is written I realize how hard it is to read some (most) of them. So here is a change: Sometimes you are dealt cards you don't want. All you can do is play though. It doesn't matter what you are dealt it matters how you play the hand. You can fold your hand or you can stick it out and see what the next card is. It is your choice. Whatever you choice you have to deal with. I have learned that it is totally worth sticking it out for the next hand of cards. Your first hand may totally suck but if you learned from that hand what to do with your next cards, then it is good. It seems like one day the game will be over and you can play again with new experiences. It is great. It is like a whole new beginning. You will always remember the things that have happened. Good and bad. But you can never regret them because they have made you who you are and brought you to where you are. When it seems like you will never get a good hand, some how you do. Some how the "dealer" deals you something good. There is no reason to be surprised, or worried, or scared. Take it for what it is and see what it brings. You probably deserve it what you get this time. You will never know until you play. "there is no such thing as a mistake but if you failed to learn something then a small part of your life was wasted" Jerry Springer

The simple words of a child

Have you ever had a bad day or even week. You feel like no one notices anything you do. Your life revolves around taking care of others. It gets draining. You start to feel like no one cares. Well I have been there. Just the other week. It was horrid. I hated it. Well It all changed thanks to a little conversation I had with my 4 year old, when I called from work. It went something like this: Hey sweetie. Thank you so much for being such a good brother. I'm proud of you. You are a good son. I'm proud of you too mom. Really? why is that? because you work everyday to buy us food, and clothes and a place to live. Everything that was bothering me went away. All the sadness. I'm amazed at the words of a small child. Just the simple words he said. He took note of the things that I for him and his sister is greatful for that. It is something I will always remember. The love of a child. AMAZING