Broken

When something is broken how easily is it fixed? can it just fix itself or does it need help? Is is stronger or weaker? Like a broken bone it will fix. It usually takes some outside help. But it is usually weaker then before. It never heals as strong. Which in return, it is more prone to brake again. Is it really worth all the pain and suffering to fix it if you know it will just brake again? But is it worth not having if you dont fix it? Somethings are so broken they cant be fixed. No matter how hard you try, it isnt happening. Somethings have been broken for so long it just isnt worth fixing. And somethings no matter how hard you try you cannot fix, it is like it wants to be that way. It wants to be broken and falling apart. It doesnt want outside help to be fixed. Then what? Do you just let it be? or do you fight to fix it? There are so many questions and not enough answers. You must decide!

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I recently took my kids back to the reservation. We went just for a few days. To see family, and friends. To get "old dine" grandma some firewood for the winter. To just visit. It is amazing there. The simplicity of life. The calmness. There is never a hurry to do anything. You just do it as you feel the urge. To take a minute from the hectic world of the city is priceless. To step back and see all the things that matter to you right there in front of you, pure amazement. It is a totally different way of life. But for some reason it is ok. It doesn't matter. Bathing out of a bucket with water warmed by a fire, you just chopped wood for, is the best. Life maybe hard there but for some reason it is relaxing. It brings a certain inner peace that other things cant. The beauty of the sun raising over the mesa. The stars shine bright because there are no city lights to drowned them out. The laughter that fills the air. The family that fills the hogan. The good times My son did not want to leave. He did a lot of work. But it seemed right to him. Like a place he wants to be. So my next thought is this: Why not take my kids and live there? Why not have them learn their rich culture? Why not have them live simply, and gain so much from it?